Take A WalkTake a walk in my fat suitI dare youStep into my world, walk a mileAre you strong enough?Can you handle it?Fat. Lazy. Dirty. Smelly. Stupid. Slow.All those names and moreI’ve been called them allI hear those words everywhere I goYou know what I never hear?Words like shy, quiet, well-read, intelligent, big heartedNever anything positiveDo you know me?Have you lived a day in my life?Do you truly believe you are strong enough, capable?Walk a mile in my suitThen we will see what words you useYour first word would be painEvery joint, every bone, every soft spot insideBruised from the harsh words you throw like stonesThe next word would be tiredExhausted from carrying my load as well as yoursEvery ugly word, deed, or word you fling aren’t mineThey’re yours, laced with your fears, they are heavyThe next word is sickWhat you don’t know, can’t seeIs the monster living inside of meIt drains my strengthUndermines my will powerEats at my v
Leaving“It’s time.”I hate those wordsI knew they were comingI knew our time was limitedBefore I ever let you set footInto my private spaceI knew you were leavingBefore you even arrivedAfter all, we’d discussed itLike the adults we wereThat I had pretended to beWe set the date, the timeEven the scene and moodAll carefully plannedWe knew our time was shortBut because of that it was more dearBoth instilling all we couldAll the feelings, all the sharingAll the touching and quiet timeWe packed a lifetime of heartInto a moments fleeting shadowBut now it’s time for you to goNever before have I hated the sunriseThe call of the morning doveSets my teeth on edgeI want to forget the timeForget my promise of letting you goI want to wrap myself back into the warm blanketThat is your embraceI want to forget about the cold, heartless timeI want to cling like the lost childThat I am feeling insideI want to beg you to stay, or to take me with youB
Me NeitherHave you ever been so angry?All you can do is freezeYour mind screamingRanting, fuming, gnashing its teethStraining against the self-imposed leashYeah, me neitherHave you ever been wounded?More than a superficial scratchA bubbling, boiling, open woundPouring out your life’s bloodNo matter the number of Band-Aids usedYeah, me neitherHave you ever been so lonely?The simplest act of trying to touchFeeling nothing but futility and empty spaceDusty depression your daily dietStarving standing in front of that feastYeah, me neitherHave you ever been so afraid?Your feet stuck, your brain frozen, tongue thickYour body locked, stopped in timeEvery muscle poised, screaming for flightBut you can only followYeah, me neitherHave you ever been right?Bullet proof, vindicated, unassailableOn the very brink of accolades, admirationVerified, satisfied, and appreciatedThe one true sourceYeah, me neitherHave you ever been happy?Blissful, mindless, formless and lightEve
EverEver get lost in a memoryFeel the old drag you down?Ever drown in forgotten feelingsTheir weight pulling at your soul?Ever wonder what happenedLook for the wrong turn and never find it?Ever sit in wonderLost in the world of 'what if'?Ever watch your past lifeA tragic movie that never changes?Ever miss someoneKnowing how wrong for you they truly were?Ever hate your heartIts wanderings and wantings confusing to you?Ever find lonelyAlways your friend and now an enemy?